Things are beginning to settle down, I am approaching the go live date for a big project at work and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel for problems that were previously making me anxious, causing my to worry. I went on a training course and felt confident after because I knew most of it, but more importantly it greatly boosted my colleagues who would rely on me for information and guidance.
The CS team is sorted, we went with a recommendation from Karrage, a guy called Electrix or Andre. He is older like me and Tom and has a steady head form the few conversations I have had. He buys into the whole TeqR entity and knows how much it means for me to drive every ounce of effort into each round, of each game in every league and cup. Chris was replaced by a young gun, a 19 year old guy from Hereford called Christopher, who uses the in game name Kristof, so naturally we call him Krispy. He had 2 tryouts, the first one he didn't do so well, he got 5 kills in 26 rounds I think, but I will get back to that. We sent James to do the initial recruitment, I think this may have been harsh on him as sometimes reading how someone is on your own can be difficult but at the same time he took the responsibility on tremendously well. We tried out a guy called Defteh who ended up being pretty much identical to Chris, which wouldn't really have been a progression, why not just keep our good friend? We tried out an old friend in Frosty for those of you who know him on CS know he has a lot of ability but can be challenged by mentality when he isn't in an official environment. He also tried out twice. I don't think he did badly in the games but he was not the correct fit and you could see cob webs from not playing. I think in this situation it is a lot better to have tried, than to not have and talked about what would have been. I still believe it is well in Frostys ability to get on a good team.
Kristof messaged James and apologised for how badly he did, and said it was because of nerves. Amongst the lads there was some feeling of not much point in trying him again if he is nervous. But as humans naturally do some of us forgot the times we shit the bed, beit online or on LAN and were still here. Tom made a strong point that this guy showed no arrogance, he was confident enough in himself to turn up and say he messed up and apologise. He tried out again, low and behold he top fragged and had great chemistry with the lads, good communication and a good CT side. He is definitely another one to watch. Projekt who joined before, said he couldnt commit the time, then joined XENEX.. what a sign of a great character aye?
I am getting what I think everyone does in retired life. I think I should be in the ESEA match on thursday, but I am enjoying not having to prac, and be tired trying to press my brain to figure teams out in matches to try and win. I don't miss the HSMod DM ritual, I do enjoy casually DMing for a while however even if I don't play.
I said last time I felt this huge obligation to be a core member of the team in TeqR esports that will get the brand out there, but in reality me doing that stops the brand getting out there as far as it could. I can make the dream real by enabling others, taking people like Kristof and surrounding him with the right people to enable his greatness.
I think this is the same for the OW team. I think we hit the nail on the head with this team. I spoke with Smather, I don't think he is good enough to be on this team, neither does he. He is a good player, but he has a busy life and plays WoW a lot, enjoyably with friends. Staying with the OW team as a player would be a drain on him, and it would hold them back from getting someone on their level. These guys play with pros on alt accounts in mm. I want to help them find 6, if they want to of course and get them out of MM and playing in cups, leagues. The end goal is they become some invite level team for TeqR, or they leave TeqR and join invite teams. They make themselves money and represent Matt the way he deserves.
Sam will help coordinate and manage the OW team like I do with CS. He can join the rosters as organiser in ESL cups etc and keep things on track.
Hearthstone loses Jade, Rodney and DayC, leaving only Lethal and Shipwreck. Harry is still on his rituals but something isn't there yet. I once remember Firebat saying a good player will push to legend in around 30 hours so why isn't Harry? I think we are close but he needs to dig deep and find that last answer. I think the key may be sticking to one deck from rank 5 to legend. If there is an exchange with Zoo and Dragon Warrior say, perhaps it is clever to ignore the matchup %ages and play freeze mage. Switching decks a lot can tilt a player I have seen a few pros advise against this so I only ever have 1 or 2 decks in my list. I don't know even what Harry is playing but if anyone is going to figure it out, it is him. I don't even know where Shipwreck is, I think he may be on an unsociable shift so we just arent seeing him at the moment but I want to see more. I want to see some online cup results from both players but I just dont have the time to focus my energies toward them right now I need to figure something out to help them.
I spoke to Ek0p a lot at LAN, they didnt barrier off the pro area for ages so I just went in and I suggested to him that now he isnt in Cloud9 he should make his own org and he really didnt see the benefit. For me an org is like a job, I don't want anyone to be my boss and I want to be the boss I never really had. Someone who will genuinely be there for you to make the business bigger, not use you to make the business bigger.
I have a deal with my brother, if we aren't our own boss by 2025, we will make a business together then. This enables him to finish his PhD, travel and gain some experience in the world while I build up my empire and my contact book with more people I believe can help us achieve success.
Last week however, something hit me and I think I may have found a hole in a market that can be very profitable. More on this if it is oil under there.
As I have grown older I have learned to not just accept things from people and only see the start and the end as the whole journey. I need to pick holes in everything until it is waterproof which is why I think I am finally there with an opportunity where I can self sustain.
I have been in companies where I have had more than 3 CEO's/MD's in my time there. I don't want to be a rich man who doesnt achieve, I see people come into companies on huge salaries, make the same mistakes as last time, get the sack but land on both feet due to the golden parachute they have in their contract, and go and do the same thing somewhere else. I want to be someone the next generation are reading about on LinkedIn.
When I get thinking, I sometimes find it hard to comprehend that I am just a normal man, who will live a normal lifespan, and that difficulty in comprehending turns into rejection. I am not going to be another normal person who lives comfortably. I sometimes fear failure greatly but looking back mistakes have made me a lot better at what I do because I don't make them again.
We have downtime now, 6 months ish until Spring LAN. Before then we will have a new TeqR site, one worth talking about, and some content for games here. There is a lot more to come and I will keep spilling my thoughts and feelings into posts in the hope it enables more people and engages some discussion.